this has been THE worst week of my life.
i am not exaggerating.
everything has been exacerbated by the fact that i am completely alone on my journey through life.  i have had nothing at all to lean on these last two weeks.  somehow, i am still standing.
i think i am near the state of delirium.
my left eye is constantly twitching.
i am so tired that i barely feel any of my usual physical pains.
i guess all that's left is to smoke a huge fucking bowl and wait for enlightenment.
i am on the verge of such emotional death that i'm about to break through to the other side.
i guess once i'm on the other side, i won't recognize anyone anymore, and that really wouldn't bother me one bit.
no one's been "there" for me.
some have even taken the time to kick me while i am down.
yeah.  it all hurts.  but fuck, im at the point where everything feels warm inside because i have finally held the knowledge in my hands and tested the knowledge that i -am- alone. 
as connected as i believe we all are & as connected as i want us all to be........i'm alone.
so, see you later.  i'll journal to track my progress, but you won't find it anywhere.
i no longer need an audience.

lunch time equals nap time!

watching semi-pro tonight

it betta be the funny.

3 more hrs til vaycay
wee

rounding out my day of internetting


ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm
yeah. i got nothin.

when you dont leave the house for a day it makes it hard to come up with something interesting to say.

itchy chest ugh ugh ugh

this is me making a peep



i feel safe in this journal.